Recovered In Christ

A must share! Bang on Michael. #1 fav comment of the month!

“A moment that really stands out as transformational in my life was when I was convinced that the writings of some of my favorite mentors who quoted a lot of authors like Tozer and Spurgeon were about me – and I hated it. I saw it as an accusation and a condemnation. My pride had me in a “chokehold” as you say…until I finally realized that up until then my acceptance of my shortcomings and conviction of sin was just lip service. Truth is – it burned me up inside to be exposed by these people. But they kept at it – challenging me directly and indirectly through all of their writings and sermons – until I welcomed it. That is transformation. Can’t be faked.” – Michael Pikose

This “theme” has been on my mind quite a bit. It seems that writing challenging posts and exposing sickness and sin is ok with alot of people…as long as it’s about someone else! As soon as it hits too close to home, it is suddenly deemed as a personal attack. Or venting “resentment”. lol! I get this alot!! People thinking that I’m writing about them. If you really think that…chances are I am! Of course I am. Who else would I be talking about? It seems ok with you if I use your “enemies” as examples in my writing, you nod your head deeply, and shout out a smug amen! But you are devastated that I would use YOU in my examples.

You then try to school me about my “wicked” ways of writing about you…by writing about me on your social media. LOL!

But I don’t think you’re upset for the reasons you try to give. The Truth remains that you are mad at me for noticing how sick you are. You thought your friendship/worship/agreeing with me/kissing my ass would buy me off. That is a prevalent sick dynamic in so many recovery circles/church groups etc. that I see that deeply disturbs me. You thought that because we had a friendship I would look the other way as you began to embrace the defects you once fought to get rid of. You then thought that you could manipulate me by accusing me of what you are guilty of! You thought I would care about your approval as much as you care about mine. You thought wrong.

I say what I say and write what I write, not out of resentment, not to “attack” you and not to shame you. But rather because I know that YOU know I am telling the truth. And that has always been my promise to you, the seal of my friendship, that I will tell you the truth regardless of what it costs me, regardless of how much you will try to make it about something else. Despite your protestations, slander and anger, I believe that you are still listening to me! So much so, that you are on here reading this long after you claimed to have stopped listening.