Pinned from: Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Speaking freely about your sins and “mistakes” and confessing them to others doesn’t make you a spiritual giant. Being able to admit when you’re wrong and humbly owning your weaknesses is not enough! The real work is in the quiet commitment to change and be changed. It is in the persistent pursuit of God’s grace to be different – and then actually becoming different.
I am daily inundated with images, quotes and platitudes of others talking about “not being perfect….don’t judge me…it’s so hard for me to get humble…I’m only human….I’m a “real” addict and this is why I behave this way”…blah blah blah. What they are really saying through all the posts, long winded shares and cheesy praise music is that they are not really willing to change.
Real change does not occur when you’ve stopped feeling guilty for your mistakes or because you have finally decided to humble yourself and accept that you have “pride”. How big of you! Umm no sorry! REAL change occurs when you become willing to change. Simple as that.
In the quiet stillness you make a powerful, quiet – committed, no fanfare decision to be willing to go to any length to change. And you know what happens? You don’t keep posting things on Facebook that try to manipulate people to not “judge” you. You don’t keep taking 1 step forward and then 5 steps back. You don’t run away when people challenge you. You stop hiding in retreats/conventions/speaker tapes. You stop being satisfied in what you think is spiritual and begin to actively put into practice what you are taught. You actually change.
I know that a lot of you won’t want to hear this. You want to blame it on being emotionally immature, or on not knowing “how” to change. You want to drag the people who are actually able to walk in righteousness down and make them your equals. You want to spend hours upon hours soaking in your self pity and talking endlessly about how God loves you just the way you are.
One of the best things anyone ever said to me was that yes God loved me exactly as I was…but that He refused to let me stay that way!
Make no mistake about it. The reason why you haven’t changed much is simply because you are not really willing to change. You think you are. But if you were – trust me, you’d be different. But you’re not. And some part of you knows it.
Quietly committing to change, quietly staying humble and taking direction without a weekly rebellious uprising is genuine willingness.
You are free to stay sick, to wallow in your self-indulgent emotionalism that you try to peddle as religious experience, you are more than welcome to stay in the maze of your ego – but I won’t ever co-sign your suicide pact. Because that’s what it is. All of your games, your double mindedness, your attempts to take our inventory (lol), they are all easily seen through as feeble attempts to distance yourself from your own inability to be honest with yourself. Because if you were honest with yourself you would see that you don’t really want to change and that you are the author of most of your confusion and futility. That would be a very scary and terrible place to be so I understand the great lengths you go to try and avoid it – but the great news is that God will meet you there. I guarantee you this – He will not meet you anywhere else, and no real solid, Holy Spirit powered change will ever occur in you without it.
By the way, if you think this is about you – then it probably is. Who else would it be about?