Recovered In Christ

These prayers were born out of the greatest suffering I lived through – in the relentless task of being broken down into something that God could build up. Painful and necessary. They were not “incantations” to produce a spiritual fertilizer, or some kind of process to avoid pain, the pain of being carved out from the inside out to produce the depth that is required to not only endure the race that is the faith, but to be able to contain the love that is poured into our hearts. Thank God for the great teachers and mentors who walked with me during this time, and thank God for Christ who is in complete control.

“More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.” Romans 5:3-5

With God’s help today I am willing to be teachable, and a proper student. I am willing to take direction. I am willing to accept the truth that I am a student.

With God’s help today I will not censor my thoughts and feelings, I will express them truthfully, ignoring the urge to “tidy up” the scene in my heart or mind before “snapping the Polaroid”, expressing only the accurate snapshot of my true thoughts and feelings.

With God’s help today I do not require the attention and approval of others in order to be at peace with myself.

With God’s help today, I renounce all pride, vanity, and the need to be perceived as spiritual and wise.

With God’s help today, I will not hide my painful defects and weakness and cowardice behind spiritual “specialness” I will face up to the painful truth that I am afraid, awkward, and needy, and will not move to hide these things about myself from others or God.

With God’s help today I will pray honestly to Jesus Christ, telling him exactly what I feel and think, never telling him what solution I need, asking Him to tell me what I should next to be more AUTHENTIC, and how to heal on a deeper soul level.

Dear Holy Spirit of God, please go deep into me, deep into the cellular memory, and heal the cellular imprint that is lodged there connected with this pain. I ask in Jesus’ holy name that you bring it up and out, to be released, removed and dissolved by the Holy Light of your Love, and replace it with your Holy Spirit, and do so now.

Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I offer you every single part of me, my memories and pain, and everything that has imprinted on my soul. I commit my soul into your hands. I offer you every cell, and every strand of raw energy vibrating in my existence. Mold me in any way you so choose. I give you complete control of my thoughts, emotions and will. I command every part of me, conscious and unconscious to submit to God, and obey only the Will of Lord Jesus Christ.

Dear Lord Jesus, I ask that you ignore any request that I have that is not perfectly aligned with your Will. I ask you for the miracle of forgiveness; please forgive me for everything I have ever done to hurt people and myself. Please forgive me for hating the people who hurt me, and for hating myself. Release us all in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, and let the white Light of God himself shine down on us and fill every single cell with Love and Light, and heal every single iota of hurt.

Dear Lord Jesus Christ, you said that if I call out your name I will be saved. From the deepest part of who and what I am I call upon you Lord Jesus. From the secret pocket of my heart I call your Name Lord Jesus. From the deepest recess of my mind I call out your Name Lord Jesus Christ. From the loneliest desert that my soul has been hiding, I call out your Name, Lord Jesus the Christ. Dear Jesus of Nazareth, from the feeblest fragment of my will, I call out to you. I call out to you. I call out to you Lord Jesus. With every beat of my heart, and breath of my lungs, may each be a calling to you, oh my Lord Jesus Christ. Lord Jesus Christ convict my heart unto repentance. Let me not hide any secret hate or shame from you. Let me eat of your flesh and drink of your blood, this day Lord Jesus, that every single part of me may be reborn in your image and likeness extending into Eternity. Soften the hardness of my heart Lord, that the words may flow easily from my mouth to your ear. In you I Trust Lord Jesus, in you I hide, in you is my deepest call answered. I call out your Name; I call out your Name Lord. I call out your Name, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

“But what does it say? “The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart” (that is, the word of faith that we proclaim); because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. For the Scripture says, “Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame.” For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, bestowing his riches on all who call on him. For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.” Romans 10:8-13