Recovered In Christ

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Friday, February 10th, 2012

Made a Decision or Are You Following?

Almost 11 years ago, about a month into my pregnancy I found out that I was going to be a mother – it was unplanned, and I was as freaked out as someone who had just survived a plane crash. I rememeber crystal clear, that I went and sat on a picnic table and cried to God – telling Him that I didn’t think I had it in me to do this. I just didn’t think I was cut out to be a good mother. I remember that God told me that I’d have to make a decision. That if I followed Him he would lead me and my child into a destiny that I couldn’t even dream of. That if I let Him, He would give us a relationship that would be unending joy and love. But the decision was mine. Not to decide whethet or not I’d be a mom, or whether or not I’d ‘believe’ in myself or some other crazy stuff. I had to make a decision as to would I put God as the leader of my parenting, and at the centre of our relationship? He would then take me all the way!

Can you imagine if that was it? If I had just made a decision and then went on my way! That’s most people’s spiritual life – they make a ‘decision’ to turn their life to God in a real way, and then carry on – no follow through! They think reading books or going to church on Sunday is following through with that decision!! That is equivalent to my changing diapers once in my life – or attending a school play a few times a year and thinking I’m a real mother!! Umm No!

The decision I made on that picnic table was extremely important! The decision you make when you turn to God and accept Him as your Director is also very important. But that also means you accept the director’s script! And his direction, and vision!!

The last 10 years of raising my son has been the most incredible and soul stretching time of my life. God has kept His promise. We are living out a destiny that I could never have dreamed up! The Love we share has actually changed my heart – I love and enjoy my life in a way that was impossible before I knew my son! And all of this is impossible apart from my daily willingness to FOLLOW God.

Reading about God is great, talking about it is great. Hearing about it is great. Making a decision is great. BUT NONE of that can be a substitute for Following God!

“Among the plastic saints of our times, Jesus has to do all the dying, and all we want to hear is another sermon about his dying.” A.W. Tozer

“If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it.” – Jesus; Mark 8:34